That one thing I never wanna hear come out of either of my parent’s mouths is, “Fine. Let’s just end this now.” My parent’s have said it before though.. But not in that serious way. But after what happened a few minutes ago.. that “serious way” is happening NOW. Do you know how much it hurts to hear that? Knowing that I could possibly lose either one of them? Never seeing them again? Despite my hate for my parents, I can’t live without them. I love them way too much. Now that I’m old enough to try and help, I give that effort in. That effort that could possibly save my parent’s relationship. “No matter what you do, nothing will help. You can cry until your eyes dry out, you can scream as loud as you can.. But nothing will help with what’s happening right now. Go to your room.” Of course. Instantly, I literally cried a river. I haven’t cried that much in so long. I felt like I was going to have a heart attack because I couldn’t breathe while I was crying. Being that nice sister I am, I wanted to see if my brother was okay, because I’m not stupid, I know he could probably hear everything that’s happening. When I checked, thank God he was sleeping already. I didn’t want any trouble for him either.
If God had tumblr, I hope that he would read this: Lord, I ask that you guide my parents in this very difficult time right now. I know that they are confused, and I know that they don’t mean what they’re saying. I ask that you bless them with the power of strength. I don’t wanna have to go kn vacation with only one parent. Or end up having Christmas without the both of them being there. I will do everything I can to help them realize that what they’re doing will be the wrong choice. They fight a lot. I know that. And I know they know that. If they’re going to end it, they should at least think about the reasons why they never ended it a long time ago, why they forgave each other and moved on, why they decided not to leave. Whatever those reasons are..I hope they see that now. Jesus, I beg of you. If you could keep my parents together, that can be my Christmas wish, my birthday wish, my dandelion wish, my wishes from the genie, my wish from a shooting star, my 11:11 wish, my lucky coin in the fountain wish, my everyday wish until it happens. Sorry if it seems like I’m using you as a wishing machine.. But it’s not like that. I just don’t want my parents to be divorced ): 3